Friday, October 26, 2007


Why?!

Why must I listen to u in this? I do have my own choices of what am I gonna work in the future. Why do u keep 'sycho-ing' me? I want to pursue my dream, or do work what is my INTEREST or the job that I don't feel bored.

Property agent?!

I don't like to do all those agent stuffs! That's not my zhuang chang! I don't like to become an agent! I hate going around, asking people to buy stuffs etc.. And I hate and didn't even think of being an agent in my ENTIRE life!

I know u wish me good, don't want me to suffer outside, to see the boss' face, and don't have flexible time for myself. But u don't expect me to stay there forever, WITHOUT letting me to step out of the comfort zone, to try out what is really best for me? I know. I'f there's no one in the office, nobody is helping u, and u'll not be able to handle so many things. But right now, I'm only working as a part-time job, temporary. I still work though the pay is low, but I can't work there for a long period if the pay is still so little right? I'm not saying anything. But think, if I'm working full time as what u told me, I only have to work 2 or 3 more hours compared to now, and my pay will be doubled. SO? It still VERY little. If I work outside, just part time, I can earn more than this amount.

I know ur problems. But I simply can't work there, for so long, and I got so little amount. My mum disagree of me going there to work, cos I earn so little. She said outside job, per month, is so much more than this.

Do u know why I will agree to come and work? Bcos I know how much work load it has. And if no one help u, I don't think u can handle everything all by urself. And u know it urself too. It's not that I don't want to help u, but I really want to know what I'm really good for, and not just follow what u guys build a road for me.

I want to rely on myself.

And back to the point of property agent, u told me about ur plan, for asking me to work as property agent, and allies with the big agent company, and u said this will earn, and can succeed. And u ask me to go on course and it's free, work in the agency, to see and know how to sell houses etc.. and if there's nothing to work there, can come back office to do paper work.

And u even called the guy, and tell him that he's sending me over to attend courses, after november???

DID U EVEN ASK FOR MY CONSENT?!?!

NO!

U just tell me all thouse rubbish, and ask me to be obedient, to attend the course?!?

MY GOODNESS!

Is this fair for me? I didn't even nod my head la for goodness sake. I know u wei wo hao, but I don't want this! IT'S NOT MY INTEREST AND I WON"T GO FOR THE COURSE!

pfft!

Ur 2 precious might listen and follow what u want them to do. But sorry. I'm not going to do what I think I don't suit for, and I'm not interest in.

u guys might think that I'm rude, I didn't respect elder. Sorry. If u were me, will u guai guai and listen and to follow what people ask u to do?

It's my own future. I want to excel on my own. I don't want to kao people. Maybe next time, If I hui xin zhuan yi, I might go back office to help. Bi jing I have some of my own customer. My coach and my dad's company. I might come back for them cos if I I'm not coming back, if they want to know anything, I won't be able to answer.

So please. I have my own freedom of choice. Let me do what I want to do can?

I'm sick and tired of this.

>=(

Stop making life difficult for me.

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Maths paper 1 on monday and paper 2 on tuesday.

hais.

what am I going to do?

I'm still sux at it.

gosh!

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I want to become a kindergarten teacher, to teach little kids. (:

They are a bunch of cute little ones..

(:

But the pay is also pathetic.

1k plus?

Gosh.

Dear ask me to work with MOE, to teach primary or secondary. but, look at my standard now. How to teach Secondary?? or even upper primary? I like teaching kids. Or become a baker? I love baking cakes too!!

=D

These 2 are my childhood dream.

(:

Although u might think mei chu xi, but so? If no baker, where u get the bread from huh?

hurr...

I want to do what's really BEST for me!

NO ONE CAN STOP ME FROM DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO!

humph!