Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Overslept today. quickly rush to work. and of cos.. by cab.feeling super duper sian now.chem test later. =<hopefully teacher will tell us our phy test marks. will ask from him.I'm studying for my chem later. but too sian le.. so come to blog then go back study again. already cancelled my final theory exam yesterday. cos if I didn't cancel, I'll be taking the exam on 1st June. but I haven finish studying.. so....bored = moody??GRUMPY!hate CHEM!-----yesterday during maths class, one of my classmate wore sunglasses in class and me and my friend notice it when she came back from break. then I told my friend that the class got sun, very bright and scorching, so need to wear sunglass. then my friend say 'ya lor, later I kenna sun burn.' then I look at her and say, "I've already burnt". then she broke into laughter where the class is so quiet la.haha.yesterday..... ='<
Monday, May 28, 2007
Had so much fun yesterday. thanks marcus and andrew for ur lame-ness. =p
finally for so long I laugh SO much.. and I'm amused by the small little that they'vd said or do.
Eg. when serene trying to eat the egg yoke, and I teach her how to eat it. marcus cook the egg for us. but he so bias! cook so nice egg for serene.. but mine is more watery then hers. haa.. =p but my egg still destoryed by him! ):
I laugh till stomach pain.. keep laughing non-stop. shawn whole day moody moody de also started laughing.. (: thanks andrew and marcus for ur 'entertainment'. bleah.
I kept complaining that I stomach pain.. then jane keep asking me to go toilet. haa...
then we play games.. ice braker game and a jap game. haa.. so fun!
hmm.. heard from jane that through this games we played, jun xian get to know our names etc which is good. (:
they left about 620pm, then I have to clean up the living room.. wash dishes.. :0
we had steamboat.. but I'm not full cos we wait for the younger ones to finish eating then we eat.. but nothing left though. I'vd enjoyed myself yesterday. nothing crop up. everything is well planned. (: we didn't short of anything.. (: I'm HAPPY!
daddy ask whether I wanna have second round for dinner cos I kept complaining I'm hungry I'm hungry.. then say i wanna have second round later. then we go his elder sis there eat bah kut teh. but I had kway chap. went home after that.....
my body is in pain cos of my sunburn. ):
having difficulty sleeping cos my clothe with brush against my skin and it HURTS!
faster peel off.. then I won't suffer when sleeping, and wearing clothes.. ):
Friday, May 25, 2007
BABEL ROX!!!
Cejie
Jane
Serene
Shawn
Pei Lin
Zhen Wen
Xiao Feng
Sabrina
Marcus
Qing Tng
Andrew?
Enying?
*
Yeah! this is our FIRST group outing and Basically ALL my group members will be going! (: u guys are so great! I Love Babel~! (: thanks so much..
Andrew.... Don't say don't know la.. come join us la.. please please....
**
Dear Heavenly Father, thank u so much for placing such a wonderful people in my group. Lord God, this is our first group outing and they didn't disappoint me.. I'm really very glad and thank God for that. And Lord, now I'm pending Andrew and Enying's reply.. Lord God, I pray that they'll be able to join us this sunday. lord God, pray that u'll touch their heart, that on sunday, I'll be able to see Andrew and Enying joining us for this outing. Father I want to Thank u for everything that u have bless us with. And Lord, and I understand that next monday is the sec 4s O level examination. Father I pray and ask that u'll bless them with wisdom and knowledge, pray that ur holy spirit with be with them throughout their whole examination. Lord God, I pray that they'll have enough rest and so that the thing's they have study, will be kept in their mind and won't foret when they wake up. Lord, I entrust all of them to u, may u bless each and every one of them who will be taking their exam. Father, I thank u for ur everything. And in all this I pray in Jesus most precious name. Amen!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Went to Miss Clarity Cafe yesterday with dear and his friends. One of his friends birthday.. Happy Belated birthday Wei Sze.. (: nice food. but the ambience.... so so only.. abit warm there.. hmm.. kinda fun hanging out with them.. (:dear and hui fen very funny.. lame?? ha.. there's a fly on the table, hid under the tissue. Hui fen was like trying to blow the fly away whereas dear trying to catch the fly with S L O W motion. and she's like "help help".. then keep blowing the fly away whereby dear still S L O W L Y catch the fly.. then I was sitting there, laughing and laughing.. and dear managed to flict the fly away.. haa! so funny.. and we sat there and chat for quite long.. but after that we didn't follow them to starbucks to chat..*yawn*today can't wake up early.. too tired.. and yes! once again.. esther is efficient! (: she finish all her work! haa!*clap clap clap*and now... slack again. =x nothing to do.. yeah.. worship practise later.. worship leader-->uncle andrew (: gonna be fun when he's the worship leader. nice to work with him.. (: He's just SOOOOO cute!!! =p after prac, gonna go airport to fetch dear's mum back... (: welcome back! haa.. just being lame.. too bored..Sentosa this saturday! Church one day trip.. (: there's hundred over people going.. yipee! I'm the support singer.. =x and there's beach volleyball competition held there.. I wanna watch.. =p Sunday Babel group outing~!pls pls... my group members.. pls attend this outing.. pls pls.. *pray that all will be able to make it*
Friday, May 18, 2007
Didn't work today. got to study my geog test later. but son't have the mood to study. but still... hais..
yesterday damn sian.. and sad.. ):
kenna scolded.. and accuse me for lying??? tell me to be honest??
AHH HACK!
k la.. it's all my fault k. it's my fault for not sending. hais...
why are bad thing come in one shot?
dear, dun be sad le la.. maybe there will be a secong chance? dun sad le.. see u like that I also can't do anything lor.. please..
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Thanks dear for the dinner yesterday! <3
Yummy!
ate a half roasted chicken and creamy penne. yum yum =p
I'm full after finish eating the penne but not yet the HALF chicken. -.-'' and still have 3 bufflo wings but dear ask them to pack back cos too full le. can't finish.
and I done a stupid thing by kicking the table stand. -.-''
after dinner went to make the candy floss. honeydew flavour de.. not very nice though. lemon flavour nicer. (: eat till my dress kenna.. the sugar drop onto my dress.. ): sticky.. couldn't really wash.. ): nvm la.. cannot see..
dear didn't drive.. so we took cabby back.. but I called the comfort.. no cab and its raining..
darn.
make me wait for so long to be able to get a cab.
haa. the small little "computer" in the cab has my name.. =pPp heh heh..
anyway, I'm happy yesterday. (:
thank u baby.. <3
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Another slacking day again. why this few day no work de? kind of sian..wanted to try out new job.. but don't know what job should I find.. then can earn more de..serene.. yesterday I manage to hit black level..! and I left 2 more to complete leh.. BUT! boss ask me to go back le.... )': so sad.. I stared at the com for so long, just to complete.. in the end I STILL CAN'T MANAGE TO COMPLETE!!! argh..peter download new de.. ): I also want to play...I'm too bored..yipee.. tonight going new york new york with dear.. (:Happy 6th month dear <3
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
This story is mei shan intro to me de. And I find it interesting too. =D
take some time and read it.
Once upon a time, a tiny striped caterpillar burst out from the egg that had been his home. "Hello world," he said. "It sure is bright out here in the sun, and I'm hungry." Straight-away, he began to eat the leaf he was born on. Then another leaf… and another. And he got bigger... and bigger... until one day he stopped eating and thought: "There must be more to life than just eating and getting bigger."
So, Stripe crawled down from the tree that had shaded and fed him, and started searching for more. He found many new things—grass, dirt, holes and tiny bugs. Everything fascinated him, but nothing satisfied him. When he came across others like himself, he was excited. But these crawlers were so busy eating that they had no time to talk. "They don't know any more than I do," sighed Stripe.
One day, Stripe saw some crawlers really crawling to reach somewhere. He looked around and saw a great column rising into the air, made solely of squirming and pushing caterpillars—a caterpillar pillar. It appeared that all the caterpillars were trying to reach the top. Stripe felt new excitement—like sap rising in the spring—as he thought: "Maybe now I'll find what I'm looking for
Intrigued, he asked a crawler: "What's happening?"
Nobody has time to explain," said the other. "They're busy trying to get up there."
But what's at the top?" "No one knows that either. But it must be good. Because everybody's rushing there. Good-bye." The crawler plunged back into the pile. Stripe's head was bursting with excitement. Every second, a new crawler passed him and disappeared into the pillar. "There's only one way to find out," decided Stripe and pushed himself in.
The first moments on the pile were a shock. Stripe was pushed and kicked. Then he began climbing. No more fellow caterpillars-all were now obstacles. As he pushed on, Stripe felt he was getting higher. But some days, he could barely manage to keep his place. It was then that an anxious shadow nagged inside him: "What's at the top? Where are we going?"
A little yellow caterpillar he was crawling over gasped: "What did you say?"
I was just wondering where we're going."
You know," Yellow said, "even I was wondering. But as there's no way of finding out, I decided it wasn't important." She blushed and hastily asked: "How far are we from the top?"
Stripe answered gravely: "Since we're neither at the bottom nor at the top, we must be in the middle."
But now Stripe felt bad. "How can I step on someone I've just talked to?" he thought. He avoided Yellow as much as possible. But one day there she was, blocking the only way up. "Well, I guess it's you or me," he said, and stepped squarely on her head.
Something in the way Yellow looked at him made him feel awful. Crawling off Yellow, he whispered: "I'm sorry."
Yellow began to cry: "I could stand this life until I met you. Now when you look at me so kindly, I know that I don't like this life. I just want to crawl with you and nibble grass." Stripe's heart leapt inside. Everything looked different. The pillar made no sense at all
I would like that too," he whispered. But this meant giving up the climb—a hard decision. "Yellow dear, maybe we're close to the top. Maybe if we help each other we can get there quickly."
Maybe," she reluctantly agreed, knowing this wasn't what they wanted most. But then, she suddenly said: "Let's go down." As if he was waiting for this cue, Stripe immediately agreed and they stopped climbing.
They clung to each other as caterpillars crawled over them. The air was terrible but they were happy and rolled into a big ball so nobody could step on their eyes and stomachs. They did nothing at all for a long time. Suddenly they didn't feel anything crawling over them. They were at the side of the caterpillar pillar.
"Hi Stripe," said Yellow.
"Hi Yellow," said Stripe. And they crawled off into some fresh green grass to eat and take a nap. Before falling asleep, Stripe hugged Yellow. "Being together like this is sure different from being crushed!" She smiled and closed her eyes. So Yellow and Stripe romped in the grass, ate, grew fat and loved each other. It was heaven not to be fighting everybody every moment. But, with time, even hugging seemed boring. Each knew every hair of the other. Stripe couldn't help wondering: "There must be still more to life."
Yellow noticed Stripe's restlessness and tried to make him comfortable. "Just think how much better this is than that awful mess," she said.
"But we don't know what's at the top," he answered. "Maybe now that we've rested, we could make it to the top."
"Dear Stripe, please," she begged. "We have a nice home and we love each other. It's much more than all those lonely climbers have."
Stripe felt convinced, but only for a while. His hankering for the climbing worsened. The pillar haunted him. He crawled there regularly, looking up and wondering. But the top remained clouded. One day at the pillar, three thuds startled Stripe. Three big caterpillars had fallen from someplace and smashed. Two seemed dead but one still wiggled. Stripe whispered: "What happened? Can I help?" He made out just a few words. "The top… they'll see... butterflies alone…" The caterpillar died. Stripe crawled home and told Yellow. Both were quiet.
What did the mysterious message mean? Finally Stripe announced: "I've got to find out the secret of the top." Gently, he asked Yellow: "Will you come and help me?"
Yellow struggled inside. She loved Stripe and wanted his success. But she couldn't believe that the top was worth it. She wanted to get 'up' too; the crawling life wasn't enough for her either. Stripe seemed so sure that Yellow felt ashamed to disagree. She also felt stupid, since she could never articulate her reasons. Yet, somehow, waiting and not being sure was better than doing something she couldn't believe. For all her love, she couldn't go with Stripe. Climbing was a wrong way to get high.
"No," she said, heartsick. Stripe left her for his climb. Yellow was desolate without Stripe. She crawled daily to the pile looking for him and returned home at night, sad but half-relieved that she never saw him. If she had, she feared she might plunge after him. She felt like doing something, anything, other than waiting.
"What in the world do I really want?" she sighed. "It seems different every few minutes. But I know that there must be more."
One day, a gray-haired caterpillar hanging upside down on a branch surprised her. He seemed caught in some hairy stuff. "You seem to be in trouble," she said. "Can I help?"
"No, my dear, I have to do this to become a butterfly." Her whole insides leapt on hearing the word 'butterfly'.
"Tell me, sir," Yellow asked, "what is a butterfly?"
"It's what you are meant to become. It flies with beautiful wings and joins the earth to heaven. It drinks only nectar from the flowers and carries the seeds of love from one flower to another. Without butterflies, the world would have fewer flowers."
Yellow gasped: "It can't be true! How can I believe there's a butterfly inside you or me? Do you need to die to become a butterfly?"
"Yes and no," the gray caterpillar said. "This may look like dying but actually you will still live. Life is changed, not taken away. Isn't that different from those who die without ever becoming butterflies?"
"And if I decide to become a butterfly," said Yellow hesitantly, "what do I do?"
"Watch me. I'm making a cocoon. It's a halfway house where the change takes place. It's a big step, since you can never return to caterpillar life. And the change is so slow that anyone who might peek in may feel that nothing is happening. But the butterfly is already becoming. And once you are a butterfly, you can really love: the kind of love that makes new life."
"Oh, let me go and get Stripe," Yellow said. But she knew he was too far away.
"Don't be sad," said her new friend. "If you change, you can fly and show him how beautiful butterflies are. Maybe he will want to become one too!"
Yellow was torn in anguish: "What if Stripe comes back and I'm not there? What if he doesn't recognize my new self? Suppose he decides to stay a caterpillar? At least we can do something as caterpillars." How could she risk the only life she knew? What did she have to go on? Just another caterpillar who believed enough to make his own cocoon. And a peculiar hope that had kept her away from the pillar and leapt within her when she heard about butterflies. The gray-haired caterpillar continued to cover himself with silky threads. As he wove the last bit around his head he called: "We're all waiting for you!"
Suddenly, Yellow wanted to become a butterfly. She desired to sprout wings. So, she began spinning her own cocoon. "I didn't even know I could do it," she exclaimed in surprise. "But if I can make cocoons, maybe I can become a butterfly as well."
Meanwhile, Stripe was progressing. He was bigger and stronger now, and determined to reach the top. He avoided eye contact with others, tried not to think of Yellow. He disciplined himself not to be distracted. He didn't think he was against anybody. He was just doing what he had to get to the top. "Don't blame me if you don't succeed. It's a tough life," he would have said had any caterpillar complained.
One day, he was near his goal. When light finally filtered down from the top, he was close to exhaustion. At this height there was almost no movement. All held their positions with the skill taught by a lifetime of climbing. There was no communication. Stripe heard a crawler above him saying: "None of us can get any higher without getting rid of them."
Soon after, he felt tremendous pressure and shaking. Then came screams and falling bodies. Then silence, more light and less weight from above. Stripe felt awful. The mystery of the pillar was clearing. He now knew what had happened to the three caterpillars—and what must always happen on the pillar.
Frustrated, Stripe was still trying to justify his climb to himself when he heard a whisper from the top: "There's nothing here at all!"
It was answered by another whisper: "Quiet, fool! They'll hear you down. We're where they want to get. That's what's here!"
Stripe froze. To be so high and not high at all! It only looked good from the bottom.
The whisper came again: "Look! Over there! Another pillar. And... and another! Pillars everywhere!"
"My pillar," Stripe moaned, "is only one of thousands! Something is wrong, but what else is there?"
His life with Yellow seemed far away. Yellow! She knew something. "I wish I were with her. I could go down," he thought. "I'd look ridiculous but maybe it's better than this."
Stripe's thoughts were interrupted by bursts of movement above him. Everyone seemed to be making a last effort to find some entry to the top. With every push the top layer tightened. Finally, one caterpillar gasped: "Unless we try together, nobody will reach the top. Maybe if we give one big push..."
But before they could act, there were cries and commotion. Stripe struggled to the edge to see the cause. A brilliant yellow winged creature was circling the pillar, moving freely. A wonderful sight! How did it get so high without climbing? When Stripe poked out his head the creature seemed to recognize him. It tried to grab him. Stripe caught himself just before being pulled out of the pile. The brilliant creature let go and looked sadly into his eyes. The look thrilled Stripe. Words from the past returned to his mind: "…butterflies alone." Is this a butterfly? And what did it mean? "The top… they'll see…" It was all so strange. Yet it was supposed to be. Could it be…? Impossible! But the excitement wouldn't stop. He felt happy. Somehow he could escape. As this possibility became real, he felt he shouldn't escape like this. Looking into the creature's eyes he could hardly bear the love he saw. He wanted to make up for all the times he had refused to look at the other.
He stopped struggling. The others stared at him as though he were mad. Stripe turned around and began to go down the pillar. This time he didn't curl up. He stretched out full length and looked straight into the eyes of each caterpillar. He marveled at their beauty, amazed that he had never noticed it before. He whispered to each caterpillar: "I've been up. There's nothing there."
Most paid no attention. They were too intent on climbing. One said: "It's sour grapes." But some were shocked and even stopped climbing to hear him better. One of these whispered in anguish: "Don't say it, even if it's true. What else can we do?" Stripe's answer shocked them all, including himself: "We can fly! We can become butterflies! There's nothing at the top and it doesn't matter!"
As he heard his own message he realized how he had misread the instinct to get high. To get to the 'top' he must fly, not climb. Stripe looked at each caterpillar inebriated with joy that there could be a butterfly inside. But the reaction was worse than before. He saw fear in their eyes. This news was too good to be true. And if it wasn't? The hope that lit up the pillar dimmed. The way down was so long. Doubt flooded Stripe. The pile took on horrible dimensions. He struggled on. It seemed wrong to give up believing. Yet believing seemed impossible. A crawler sneered: "How could you swallow such a story? Our life is earth and climbing. Look at us worms! We couldn't be butterflies inside. Just enjoy caterpillar living!"
"Perhaps he's right," sighed Stripe. "I haven't any proof. Did I make it up because I needed it?" He continued down, searching for those eyes, which would let him whisper: "I saw a butterfly—there can be more to life." Finally, he was down.
Tired and sad, Stripe crawled off to the old place where Yellow and he had romped. She was not there. He was too exhausted to go further. He fell asleep. When he finally awoke he found the yellow creature fanning him with wings of light.
"Is this a dream?" he wondered. But the dream creature acted awfully real. She stroked him with her feelers and looked at him so lovingly that he began to trust what he had said about becoming a butterfly. The butterfly walked a little distance, then flew back. She repeated it as if indicating that he should follow her. Stripe complied, and they came to a branch from which hung two torn sacks. The creature kept on inserting her head, then her tail, into one of them. Then she would fly to him and touch him. Her feelers quivered and Stripe knew she was speaking. Slowly he seemed to understand. Somehow he knew what to do. Stripe began making a cocoon. And Yellow waited. It got darker and Stripe was afraid. He felt he had to let go of everything.
Until one day…
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Woo.. finally can update le.. something wrong with the server yesterday.. so cant blog.yesterday mood was really very bad.. shall not post..yesterday after my night class, went 85 with dear together with meishan and bingzheng for dinner. didn't had breakfast, lunch and dinner before going school. cos mummy haven finish cooking, so I just went off without having any. during break in school, ask irdwan to buy me milo cos I don't have any coins with me. (: thanks (: and thanks for waiting and walking with me to school. ha.. I know u also don't want to go school early.. haha.. that's why wait for me right??was having physic practical yesterday.msging serene in class.. *hug hug* ):remember k? hee..no work to do again.sian.O level timetable out le...
Friday, May 04, 2007
Off day
thanks daddy for giving me a day off today, for me to study. of cos I'm not slacking by posting my blog la.. but I will definately study later de. besides I had my powerpoint slides in the com.
a week just past like that once again..
those university students finished their exams le.. (:
-mei shan
-bing zheng
-ce jie
-meiting
congrats.. =DD
Dear Heavenly father,
heard that marcus is running a high fever yesterday,
he didn't take any medication because he is allegic to it.
Lord, may ur Holy spirit be with him,
heal him lord, as u our healer.
send down ur angels to be with him, to keep him safe, to protect him.
Dear God, we entrust marcus unto ur hand.
May u continue to bless and protect him during this period of time in the army lord.
I pray all this in jesus name.
Amen.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
just wanna have a quick update on labour day.. 1st May.early in the morning went for a duck tour with dear's family. went down to marina bay, then up to the land. about 1 hour trip. after that went to Boon Lay Raja restaurant for lunch. and than dear, shawn and I went ice-skating. haa.. fell 3 times.. =p but dear say I didn't fell.. but instead I lie down.. haha.. cos I fell le then lie ma.. if didn't fell how to lie. me and shawn cannot take it.. our legs very tired. not bad leh.. dear can skate so well.. shawn was learning how to brake.. haha.. funny.. he can't brake... =p (me too la) had so much fun playing... and my jean wet la..went to walk with mummy at west mall.. bought to clothes.. (: nice nice..*didn't do much work yesterday.slept in the office cos didn't feel well when on the way to office. feel like throwing up. then daddy gave me a pill to eat. after that.. cos no work ma.. then he talk talk talk... talk finish le he do his work, then I hug my pillow and sleep.. when I woke up, he say go home. and I thought it's already 5pm plus.. then I see my phone, just 450pm. went katong and rest, watch tv. daddy cook porridge for me. (: thank u.. but they had spagetti for dinner! ): dear so bad la.. eat spagetti beside me.. humph.. but I ate 1 mouth from his.. =pafter dinner, he went home, then we go sun plaza to watch 200 pounds beauty. nice show.. (: the girl pretty.. (but I don't like her teeth.) I like her eyes.. very nice.. at the end very touching.. haa.. and I teared. and u see the amount of oil they suck out. yucks..haha.. and after the operation, everything is made of silicon, so if people touch it, they will know that it's fake. haha..not bad.. this few days I'm enjoying.. =pthanks dear.. (:Labels: Had so much fun
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Overslept today. quickly rush to work. and of cos.. by cab.feeling super duper sian now.chem test later. =<hopefully teacher will tell us our phy test marks. will ask from him.I'm studying for my chem later. but too sian le.. so come to blog then go back study again. already cancelled my final theory exam yesterday. cos if I didn't cancel, I'll be taking the exam on 1st June. but I haven finish studying.. so....bored = moody??GRUMPY!hate CHEM!-----yesterday during maths class, one of my classmate wore sunglasses in class and me and my friend notice it when she came back from break. then I told my friend that the class got sun, very bright and scorching, so need to wear sunglass. then my friend say 'ya lor, later I kenna sun burn.' then I look at her and say, "I've already burnt". then she broke into laughter where the class is so quiet la.haha.yesterday..... ='<
Monday, May 28, 2007
Had so much fun yesterday. thanks marcus and andrew for ur lame-ness. =p
finally for so long I laugh SO much.. and I'm amused by the small little that they'vd said or do.
Eg. when serene trying to eat the egg yoke, and I teach her how to eat it. marcus cook the egg for us. but he so bias! cook so nice egg for serene.. but mine is more watery then hers. haa.. =p but my egg still destoryed by him! ):
I laugh till stomach pain.. keep laughing non-stop. shawn whole day moody moody de also started laughing.. (: thanks andrew and marcus for ur 'entertainment'. bleah.
I kept complaining that I stomach pain.. then jane keep asking me to go toilet. haa...
then we play games.. ice braker game and a jap game. haa.. so fun!
hmm.. heard from jane that through this games we played, jun xian get to know our names etc which is good. (:
they left about 620pm, then I have to clean up the living room.. wash dishes.. :0
we had steamboat.. but I'm not full cos we wait for the younger ones to finish eating then we eat.. but nothing left though. I'vd enjoyed myself yesterday. nothing crop up. everything is well planned. (: we didn't short of anything.. (: I'm HAPPY!
daddy ask whether I wanna have second round for dinner cos I kept complaining I'm hungry I'm hungry.. then say i wanna have second round later. then we go his elder sis there eat bah kut teh. but I had kway chap. went home after that.....
my body is in pain cos of my sunburn. ):
having difficulty sleeping cos my clothe with brush against my skin and it HURTS!
faster peel off.. then I won't suffer when sleeping, and wearing clothes.. ):
Friday, May 25, 2007
BABEL ROX!!!
Cejie
Jane
Serene
Shawn
Pei Lin
Zhen Wen
Xiao Feng
Sabrina
Marcus
Qing Tng
Andrew?
Enying?
*
Yeah! this is our FIRST group outing and Basically ALL my group members will be going! (: u guys are so great! I Love Babel~! (: thanks so much..
Andrew.... Don't say don't know la.. come join us la.. please please....
**
Dear Heavenly Father, thank u so much for placing such a wonderful people in my group. Lord God, this is our first group outing and they didn't disappoint me.. I'm really very glad and thank God for that. And Lord, now I'm pending Andrew and Enying's reply.. Lord God, I pray that they'll be able to join us this sunday. lord God, pray that u'll touch their heart, that on sunday, I'll be able to see Andrew and Enying joining us for this outing. Father I want to Thank u for everything that u have bless us with. And Lord, and I understand that next monday is the sec 4s O level examination. Father I pray and ask that u'll bless them with wisdom and knowledge, pray that ur holy spirit with be with them throughout their whole examination. Lord God, I pray that they'll have enough rest and so that the thing's they have study, will be kept in their mind and won't foret when they wake up. Lord, I entrust all of them to u, may u bless each and every one of them who will be taking their exam. Father, I thank u for ur everything. And in all this I pray in Jesus most precious name. Amen!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Went to Miss Clarity Cafe yesterday with dear and his friends. One of his friends birthday.. Happy Belated birthday Wei Sze.. (: nice food. but the ambience.... so so only.. abit warm there.. hmm.. kinda fun hanging out with them.. (:dear and hui fen very funny.. lame?? ha.. there's a fly on the table, hid under the tissue. Hui fen was like trying to blow the fly away whereas dear trying to catch the fly with S L O W motion. and she's like "help help".. then keep blowing the fly away whereby dear still S L O W L Y catch the fly.. then I was sitting there, laughing and laughing.. and dear managed to flict the fly away.. haa! so funny.. and we sat there and chat for quite long.. but after that we didn't follow them to starbucks to chat..*yawn*today can't wake up early.. too tired.. and yes! once again.. esther is efficient! (: she finish all her work! haa!*clap clap clap*and now... slack again. =x nothing to do.. yeah.. worship practise later.. worship leader-->uncle andrew (: gonna be fun when he's the worship leader. nice to work with him.. (: He's just SOOOOO cute!!! =p after prac, gonna go airport to fetch dear's mum back... (: welcome back! haa.. just being lame.. too bored..Sentosa this saturday! Church one day trip.. (: there's hundred over people going.. yipee! I'm the support singer.. =x and there's beach volleyball competition held there.. I wanna watch.. =p Sunday Babel group outing~!pls pls... my group members.. pls attend this outing.. pls pls.. *pray that all will be able to make it*
Friday, May 18, 2007
Didn't work today. got to study my geog test later. but son't have the mood to study. but still... hais..
yesterday damn sian.. and sad.. ):
kenna scolded.. and accuse me for lying??? tell me to be honest??
AHH HACK!
k la.. it's all my fault k. it's my fault for not sending. hais...
why are bad thing come in one shot?
dear, dun be sad le la.. maybe there will be a secong chance? dun sad le.. see u like that I also can't do anything lor.. please..
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Thanks dear for the dinner yesterday! <3
Yummy!
ate a half roasted chicken and creamy penne. yum yum =p
I'm full after finish eating the penne but not yet the HALF chicken. -.-'' and still have 3 bufflo wings but dear ask them to pack back cos too full le. can't finish.
and I done a stupid thing by kicking the table stand. -.-''
after dinner went to make the candy floss. honeydew flavour de.. not very nice though. lemon flavour nicer. (: eat till my dress kenna.. the sugar drop onto my dress.. ): sticky.. couldn't really wash.. ): nvm la.. cannot see..
dear didn't drive.. so we took cabby back.. but I called the comfort.. no cab and its raining..
darn.
make me wait for so long to be able to get a cab.
haa. the small little "computer" in the cab has my name.. =pPp heh heh..
anyway, I'm happy yesterday. (:
thank u baby.. <3
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Another slacking day again. why this few day no work de? kind of sian..wanted to try out new job.. but don't know what job should I find.. then can earn more de..serene.. yesterday I manage to hit black level..! and I left 2 more to complete leh.. BUT! boss ask me to go back le.... )': so sad.. I stared at the com for so long, just to complete.. in the end I STILL CAN'T MANAGE TO COMPLETE!!! argh..peter download new de.. ): I also want to play...I'm too bored..yipee.. tonight going new york new york with dear.. (:Happy 6th month dear <3
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
This story is mei shan intro to me de. And I find it interesting too. =D
take some time and read it.
Once upon a time, a tiny striped caterpillar burst out from the egg that had been his home. "Hello world," he said. "It sure is bright out here in the sun, and I'm hungry." Straight-away, he began to eat the leaf he was born on. Then another leaf… and another. And he got bigger... and bigger... until one day he stopped eating and thought: "There must be more to life than just eating and getting bigger."
So, Stripe crawled down from the tree that had shaded and fed him, and started searching for more. He found many new things—grass, dirt, holes and tiny bugs. Everything fascinated him, but nothing satisfied him. When he came across others like himself, he was excited. But these crawlers were so busy eating that they had no time to talk. "They don't know any more than I do," sighed Stripe.
One day, Stripe saw some crawlers really crawling to reach somewhere. He looked around and saw a great column rising into the air, made solely of squirming and pushing caterpillars—a caterpillar pillar. It appeared that all the caterpillars were trying to reach the top. Stripe felt new excitement—like sap rising in the spring—as he thought: "Maybe now I'll find what I'm looking for
Intrigued, he asked a crawler: "What's happening?"
Nobody has time to explain," said the other. "They're busy trying to get up there."
But what's at the top?" "No one knows that either. But it must be good. Because everybody's rushing there. Good-bye." The crawler plunged back into the pile. Stripe's head was bursting with excitement. Every second, a new crawler passed him and disappeared into the pillar. "There's only one way to find out," decided Stripe and pushed himself in.
The first moments on the pile were a shock. Stripe was pushed and kicked. Then he began climbing. No more fellow caterpillars-all were now obstacles. As he pushed on, Stripe felt he was getting higher. But some days, he could barely manage to keep his place. It was then that an anxious shadow nagged inside him: "What's at the top? Where are we going?"
A little yellow caterpillar he was crawling over gasped: "What did you say?"
I was just wondering where we're going."
You know," Yellow said, "even I was wondering. But as there's no way of finding out, I decided it wasn't important." She blushed and hastily asked: "How far are we from the top?"
Stripe answered gravely: "Since we're neither at the bottom nor at the top, we must be in the middle."
But now Stripe felt bad. "How can I step on someone I've just talked to?" he thought. He avoided Yellow as much as possible. But one day there she was, blocking the only way up. "Well, I guess it's you or me," he said, and stepped squarely on her head.
Something in the way Yellow looked at him made him feel awful. Crawling off Yellow, he whispered: "I'm sorry."
Yellow began to cry: "I could stand this life until I met you. Now when you look at me so kindly, I know that I don't like this life. I just want to crawl with you and nibble grass." Stripe's heart leapt inside. Everything looked different. The pillar made no sense at all
I would like that too," he whispered. But this meant giving up the climb—a hard decision. "Yellow dear, maybe we're close to the top. Maybe if we help each other we can get there quickly."
Maybe," she reluctantly agreed, knowing this wasn't what they wanted most. But then, she suddenly said: "Let's go down." As if he was waiting for this cue, Stripe immediately agreed and they stopped climbing.
They clung to each other as caterpillars crawled over them. The air was terrible but they were happy and rolled into a big ball so nobody could step on their eyes and stomachs. They did nothing at all for a long time. Suddenly they didn't feel anything crawling over them. They were at the side of the caterpillar pillar.
"Hi Stripe," said Yellow.
"Hi Yellow," said Stripe. And they crawled off into some fresh green grass to eat and take a nap. Before falling asleep, Stripe hugged Yellow. "Being together like this is sure different from being crushed!" She smiled and closed her eyes. So Yellow and Stripe romped in the grass, ate, grew fat and loved each other. It was heaven not to be fighting everybody every moment. But, with time, even hugging seemed boring. Each knew every hair of the other. Stripe couldn't help wondering: "There must be still more to life."
Yellow noticed Stripe's restlessness and tried to make him comfortable. "Just think how much better this is than that awful mess," she said.
"But we don't know what's at the top," he answered. "Maybe now that we've rested, we could make it to the top."
"Dear Stripe, please," she begged. "We have a nice home and we love each other. It's much more than all those lonely climbers have."
Stripe felt convinced, but only for a while. His hankering for the climbing worsened. The pillar haunted him. He crawled there regularly, looking up and wondering. But the top remained clouded. One day at the pillar, three thuds startled Stripe. Three big caterpillars had fallen from someplace and smashed. Two seemed dead but one still wiggled. Stripe whispered: "What happened? Can I help?" He made out just a few words. "The top… they'll see... butterflies alone…" The caterpillar died. Stripe crawled home and told Yellow. Both were quiet.
What did the mysterious message mean? Finally Stripe announced: "I've got to find out the secret of the top." Gently, he asked Yellow: "Will you come and help me?"
Yellow struggled inside. She loved Stripe and wanted his success. But she couldn't believe that the top was worth it. She wanted to get 'up' too; the crawling life wasn't enough for her either. Stripe seemed so sure that Yellow felt ashamed to disagree. She also felt stupid, since she could never articulate her reasons. Yet, somehow, waiting and not being sure was better than doing something she couldn't believe. For all her love, she couldn't go with Stripe. Climbing was a wrong way to get high.
"No," she said, heartsick. Stripe left her for his climb. Yellow was desolate without Stripe. She crawled daily to the pile looking for him and returned home at night, sad but half-relieved that she never saw him. If she had, she feared she might plunge after him. She felt like doing something, anything, other than waiting.
"What in the world do I really want?" she sighed. "It seems different every few minutes. But I know that there must be more."
One day, a gray-haired caterpillar hanging upside down on a branch surprised her. He seemed caught in some hairy stuff. "You seem to be in trouble," she said. "Can I help?"
"No, my dear, I have to do this to become a butterfly." Her whole insides leapt on hearing the word 'butterfly'.
"Tell me, sir," Yellow asked, "what is a butterfly?"
"It's what you are meant to become. It flies with beautiful wings and joins the earth to heaven. It drinks only nectar from the flowers and carries the seeds of love from one flower to another. Without butterflies, the world would have fewer flowers."
Yellow gasped: "It can't be true! How can I believe there's a butterfly inside you or me? Do you need to die to become a butterfly?"
"Yes and no," the gray caterpillar said. "This may look like dying but actually you will still live. Life is changed, not taken away. Isn't that different from those who die without ever becoming butterflies?"
"And if I decide to become a butterfly," said Yellow hesitantly, "what do I do?"
"Watch me. I'm making a cocoon. It's a halfway house where the change takes place. It's a big step, since you can never return to caterpillar life. And the change is so slow that anyone who might peek in may feel that nothing is happening. But the butterfly is already becoming. And once you are a butterfly, you can really love: the kind of love that makes new life."
"Oh, let me go and get Stripe," Yellow said. But she knew he was too far away.
"Don't be sad," said her new friend. "If you change, you can fly and show him how beautiful butterflies are. Maybe he will want to become one too!"
Yellow was torn in anguish: "What if Stripe comes back and I'm not there? What if he doesn't recognize my new self? Suppose he decides to stay a caterpillar? At least we can do something as caterpillars." How could she risk the only life she knew? What did she have to go on? Just another caterpillar who believed enough to make his own cocoon. And a peculiar hope that had kept her away from the pillar and leapt within her when she heard about butterflies. The gray-haired caterpillar continued to cover himself with silky threads. As he wove the last bit around his head he called: "We're all waiting for you!"
Suddenly, Yellow wanted to become a butterfly. She desired to sprout wings. So, she began spinning her own cocoon. "I didn't even know I could do it," she exclaimed in surprise. "But if I can make cocoons, maybe I can become a butterfly as well."
Meanwhile, Stripe was progressing. He was bigger and stronger now, and determined to reach the top. He avoided eye contact with others, tried not to think of Yellow. He disciplined himself not to be distracted. He didn't think he was against anybody. He was just doing what he had to get to the top. "Don't blame me if you don't succeed. It's a tough life," he would have said had any caterpillar complained.
One day, he was near his goal. When light finally filtered down from the top, he was close to exhaustion. At this height there was almost no movement. All held their positions with the skill taught by a lifetime of climbing. There was no communication. Stripe heard a crawler above him saying: "None of us can get any higher without getting rid of them."
Soon after, he felt tremendous pressure and shaking. Then came screams and falling bodies. Then silence, more light and less weight from above. Stripe felt awful. The mystery of the pillar was clearing. He now knew what had happened to the three caterpillars—and what must always happen on the pillar.
Frustrated, Stripe was still trying to justify his climb to himself when he heard a whisper from the top: "There's nothing here at all!"
It was answered by another whisper: "Quiet, fool! They'll hear you down. We're where they want to get. That's what's here!"
Stripe froze. To be so high and not high at all! It only looked good from the bottom.
The whisper came again: "Look! Over there! Another pillar. And... and another! Pillars everywhere!"
"My pillar," Stripe moaned, "is only one of thousands! Something is wrong, but what else is there?"
His life with Yellow seemed far away. Yellow! She knew something. "I wish I were with her. I could go down," he thought. "I'd look ridiculous but maybe it's better than this."
Stripe's thoughts were interrupted by bursts of movement above him. Everyone seemed to be making a last effort to find some entry to the top. With every push the top layer tightened. Finally, one caterpillar gasped: "Unless we try together, nobody will reach the top. Maybe if we give one big push..."
But before they could act, there were cries and commotion. Stripe struggled to the edge to see the cause. A brilliant yellow winged creature was circling the pillar, moving freely. A wonderful sight! How did it get so high without climbing? When Stripe poked out his head the creature seemed to recognize him. It tried to grab him. Stripe caught himself just before being pulled out of the pile. The brilliant creature let go and looked sadly into his eyes. The look thrilled Stripe. Words from the past returned to his mind: "…butterflies alone." Is this a butterfly? And what did it mean? "The top… they'll see…" It was all so strange. Yet it was supposed to be. Could it be…? Impossible! But the excitement wouldn't stop. He felt happy. Somehow he could escape. As this possibility became real, he felt he shouldn't escape like this. Looking into the creature's eyes he could hardly bear the love he saw. He wanted to make up for all the times he had refused to look at the other.
He stopped struggling. The others stared at him as though he were mad. Stripe turned around and began to go down the pillar. This time he didn't curl up. He stretched out full length and looked straight into the eyes of each caterpillar. He marveled at their beauty, amazed that he had never noticed it before. He whispered to each caterpillar: "I've been up. There's nothing there."
Most paid no attention. They were too intent on climbing. One said: "It's sour grapes." But some were shocked and even stopped climbing to hear him better. One of these whispered in anguish: "Don't say it, even if it's true. What else can we do?" Stripe's answer shocked them all, including himself: "We can fly! We can become butterflies! There's nothing at the top and it doesn't matter!"
As he heard his own message he realized how he had misread the instinct to get high. To get to the 'top' he must fly, not climb. Stripe looked at each caterpillar inebriated with joy that there could be a butterfly inside. But the reaction was worse than before. He saw fear in their eyes. This news was too good to be true. And if it wasn't? The hope that lit up the pillar dimmed. The way down was so long. Doubt flooded Stripe. The pile took on horrible dimensions. He struggled on. It seemed wrong to give up believing. Yet believing seemed impossible. A crawler sneered: "How could you swallow such a story? Our life is earth and climbing. Look at us worms! We couldn't be butterflies inside. Just enjoy caterpillar living!"
"Perhaps he's right," sighed Stripe. "I haven't any proof. Did I make it up because I needed it?" He continued down, searching for those eyes, which would let him whisper: "I saw a butterfly—there can be more to life." Finally, he was down.
Tired and sad, Stripe crawled off to the old place where Yellow and he had romped. She was not there. He was too exhausted to go further. He fell asleep. When he finally awoke he found the yellow creature fanning him with wings of light.
"Is this a dream?" he wondered. But the dream creature acted awfully real. She stroked him with her feelers and looked at him so lovingly that he began to trust what he had said about becoming a butterfly. The butterfly walked a little distance, then flew back. She repeated it as if indicating that he should follow her. Stripe complied, and they came to a branch from which hung two torn sacks. The creature kept on inserting her head, then her tail, into one of them. Then she would fly to him and touch him. Her feelers quivered and Stripe knew she was speaking. Slowly he seemed to understand. Somehow he knew what to do. Stripe began making a cocoon. And Yellow waited. It got darker and Stripe was afraid. He felt he had to let go of everything.
Until one day…
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Woo.. finally can update le.. something wrong with the server yesterday.. so cant blog.yesterday mood was really very bad.. shall not post..yesterday after my night class, went 85 with dear together with meishan and bingzheng for dinner. didn't had breakfast, lunch and dinner before going school. cos mummy haven finish cooking, so I just went off without having any. during break in school, ask irdwan to buy me milo cos I don't have any coins with me. (: thanks (: and thanks for waiting and walking with me to school. ha.. I know u also don't want to go school early.. haha.. that's why wait for me right??was having physic practical yesterday.msging serene in class.. *hug hug* ):remember k? hee..no work to do again.sian.O level timetable out le...
Friday, May 04, 2007
Off day
thanks daddy for giving me a day off today, for me to study. of cos I'm not slacking by posting my blog la.. but I will definately study later de. besides I had my powerpoint slides in the com.
a week just past like that once again..
those university students finished their exams le.. (:
-mei shan
-bing zheng
-ce jie
-meiting
congrats.. =DD
Dear Heavenly father,
heard that marcus is running a high fever yesterday,
he didn't take any medication because he is allegic to it.
Lord, may ur Holy spirit be with him,
heal him lord, as u our healer.
send down ur angels to be with him, to keep him safe, to protect him.
Dear God, we entrust marcus unto ur hand.
May u continue to bless and protect him during this period of time in the army lord.
I pray all this in jesus name.
Amen.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
just wanna have a quick update on labour day.. 1st May.early in the morning went for a duck tour with dear's family. went down to marina bay, then up to the land. about 1 hour trip. after that went to Boon Lay Raja restaurant for lunch. and than dear, shawn and I went ice-skating. haa.. fell 3 times.. =p but dear say I didn't fell.. but instead I lie down.. haha.. cos I fell le then lie ma.. if didn't fell how to lie. me and shawn cannot take it.. our legs very tired. not bad leh.. dear can skate so well.. shawn was learning how to brake.. haha.. funny.. he can't brake... =p (me too la) had so much fun playing... and my jean wet la..went to walk with mummy at west mall.. bought to clothes.. (: nice nice..*didn't do much work yesterday.slept in the office cos didn't feel well when on the way to office. feel like throwing up. then daddy gave me a pill to eat. after that.. cos no work ma.. then he talk talk talk... talk finish le he do his work, then I hug my pillow and sleep.. when I woke up, he say go home. and I thought it's already 5pm plus.. then I see my phone, just 450pm. went katong and rest, watch tv. daddy cook porridge for me. (: thank u.. but they had spagetti for dinner! ): dear so bad la.. eat spagetti beside me.. humph.. but I ate 1 mouth from his.. =pafter dinner, he went home, then we go sun plaza to watch 200 pounds beauty. nice show.. (: the girl pretty.. (but I don't like her teeth.) I like her eyes.. very nice.. at the end very touching.. haa.. and I teared. and u see the amount of oil they suck out. yucks..haha.. and after the operation, everything is made of silicon, so if people touch it, they will know that it's fake. haha..not bad.. this few days I'm enjoying.. =pthanks dear.. (:Labels: Had so much fun
