Tuesday, October 09, 2007


I HAD ENOUGH!

PLEASE STOP IT!!!

I know my exams are coming in 2 weeks time. I know I still not fully prepared. I know I'm ridicules by still not knowing the formula. I know I sux at it. I know I'm stupid. I know I doesn't know how to study. Why there's studies in this world? WHY there's EXAMS in this world? All the certificate we gonna get is just PAPER and nothing else! Why must we work to hard to get that PAPER?

Why do I work so hard? And in the end, all I get is still only nagging, look down, disappointment to people, scolding, blaming and all the bad stuffs. I'm not trying to be optimistic. But it's just true. No matter how hard I've tried, I still won't get the praises.

I know I'm good-for-nothing. I'm just stupid. I can't study. I'm slow! There's no time for me already! Exams are 2 weeks time!

I deserve all the scolding!

I'm useless!

I really need help. But there's no one that can help.

No one.

I'm just. alone. in this small world that no one notice my presence.

There's no more laughter in my life.

My life is cold and colourless.

Where's esther?

She's dead.

Life is no longer that interesting.