Wednesday, August 15, 2007


WTF?! I cancelled the post and I was half written.. pfft!

Reached office at 1130am.

Couldn't get into sleep last night. Or rather this morning. Was pondering about what happened yesterday. This morning, my freaking hell sister woke up, do her stuffs with the lights on this MORNING at around 8plus(wth, who will on the light early in the morning? IS SHE BLIND THAT SHE CAN'T SEE?!?!) and woke me up. Actually, I wasn't really sleeping the whole night though. And she so damn inconsiderate la! On the light, open the door so wide(I HATE people who open the door so wide when it's in the aircondition room!) and talk in the room so loudly! WTH! CAN U PLEASE BE CONSIDERATE?!? if I do this back to u, u will KPKB! Then what about me?!? FREAKING HELL! pfft!

I'm damn pissed off..

u made me cried once again. Do u know how hurtful those words are to me? how could u say this kind of things to me? And it's just bcos of my studies, u use it to threaten me! I didn't expect u to say this.. u made me feel so disappointed in u... u gave me warning... and if I didn't do well for my exams this time round, u told me to be prepared that it won't last for another year.... )': DO U KNOW HOW HURTFUL IT IS TO ME!!!! u said I stress u by saying a no to u when u asked me whether can I get all Bs for my exams. WHAT ABOUT U?? didn't u stress me too? didn't u and ur parents stress me too?? WHO is the one that is more stress?!! U don't even know the inside me.. u only see the outer me.. what do u know me? Do u really know me inside out? NO! u DON'T! let me tell u.. U DON'T!!! u guys always tell me to study hard, so that my future will be good, will excel.. u think I don't want to excel in my studies?! u think I want my future to go down the drain?!? u think I want to sabotage myself? by having a lousy CERT?!? u guys simply look down on me! ur parents, and EVEN ur BROTHER! I was so disappointed... this is the time I needed someone, whom I can really rely on, whom I can really have someone, to be with me, together to face this trials together. but now, u said this to me.. how do u want me to carry on... I'm heart-broken by ur words.. u promised to be with me through this year's O level once again.. can u? don't give me an empty promises.. don't even hurt me anymore.... please... stress me no more...

once again.. u made me cry.. with u not noticed...

I'm gonna stop working on the 24th Aug. I'm gonna tell my boss that I won't be working till I finish my Os. Cos I'll be studying with Jiaxian as he's willing to coach me sciences. thanks.. alot! (: I hope I can still catch up in this 2 months or so...

please pray for me as I really NEED the prayer of support! thanks.. (:

Combined cell at Jessie's house tonight. (: