Wednesday, July 04, 2007


God Knows What's Wrong With Me.

What's really happening right now? I can't take it anymore! I can't take this stress! I can't handle this problems! I can't stop this from going! I can't! I've in no position.. I can't compare cos definately I'll LOSE! I can't fight. I've no energy left. I can't do anything to stop. I'm tired...

COS I'M JUST A THIRD PARTY!

This is what u told me. I know u mean good to me. I know u are trying to help me. but I'm Hurt to know that. I really can't accept. I really can't.. why must this thing happen to me. why can't it be a peaceful one? why can't it be a happy one? why must it be a sad, disappointing and hurtful thing?

WHY?!

I need help. but it just don't work. I'll get hurt in the end.

I might down to depression some day if the problems doesn't solve.

Someone asked, "which is the real u? The happy-go-lucky one, or the mature type"?
I answered, "the happy-go-lucky one".
Someone asked, "then why don't u be urself"?

I kept silent.

Father, Please help me. please let me become my real self again. please stop all the problems that I'm facing right now. please give me the courage, to talk things out, and give me the heart, to be able to take the truth. Father, I'm hurt. Your sheep has injured. Is bleeding.. Father, I pray that Lord, U will really bless us. Pray that everything is going to be fine, and no more such problems ANYMORE! Father, I thank u. May U keep and watch over me. Amen!