Tuesday, July 24, 2007


23rd July 2007, My tamagotchi died. )': 17th generation.. sob sob... it took me so long to "feed" it, sob.. and it suddenly die.. When in school, I still feed it ma.. and it's fine.. but when I got home, I saw an angel.. die le... I showed it to mummy, and she laugh.. ): I showed it to dear, he laugh too.. ): and he said finally I can stop 'taking care; of it le. hais.. sad sia.. so long le and it died.. nevermind.. maybe good also.. then I don't have to 'take care' of it anymore..

Yesterday after class, went to dear house and help him pack his books.. full of books and DUST! tsk tsk... we pack till around 1am plus.. then send me home... rain whole day..

Hah! and he found my planet shakers cd. it's in his car. that day I did search his car, I open the player, saw nothing inside. but yesterday dear went to serach for it again, and he found it inside the player. Cos I didn't eject the cd out.. =p haa.. and he found my hair clip.. he send the car for washing and found my long lost hair clip. (:

After work we went to Ubi, my uncle's workplace to collect carton boxes.. alot of it.. but only 10 can be use. -.-'' haa.. went katong for dinner then head to Bishan. go walk walk for awhile, and meet dear's friend.

Time pass very slowly yeserday... ):

I hate it!

hais.

I'm timid.

Esther do not have the courage.

):

Be brave Esther. Didn't u pray to God and ask for courage? trust and believe that He will give.

Thank God for blessing me before, today and forever. (:

Yes, we must be thrifty. but this kind of stuffs we can't save up ok.

Baby eunice, I think I'm like u too.. I also keep procrastinating too.. it reflects me when I read it. it makes me ponder about how lazy I am, how stubborn I am, by not listening to people's quan gao. I turn their words into a deaf ear. (ba hua dang er bian feng) hais. I should be the one that is so much so much way too much for my own good. ):

I need more motivation. I can't motivate myself. I can talk sense to people, but I can't talk sense to myself. hais. I'm useless.. as what dear friend said yesterday. she broke off with her boyfriend last week cos he wasn't improving himself. cos he's a nsf, and he doesn't know his future etc. and she said that his leg was injured for 5 months plus, and didn't recover. until she left him, 1 week later he's leg recover. and he told her that he had realise how life was and he wanted to zhen zuo again.

And after I hear what she say, I felt guilty. Dear look at me in that kind of expression and makes me feel... bad.. it's not that I want to destroy my future. I also want to have a good future, a good life, a good job that can earn alot and save up. but.. it just... I'm speechless.

I'm utterly disappointed in you esther.

buck up!