Friday, October 20, 2006


Hais. did so badly for my physic practical la! damn screwed up can! esther u are SUPER careless! why u so dumb? simple calculation and simple practical u can't even do it perfectly!
u are dumb! seriously u are stupid and careless! if u have read the the things carefully, u won't have make this silly mistakes and waste 7 marks for practical which is like HALF the marks gone? gosh.. what else can I do now? rely on my papers? oh no.. just have to pray hard for my chem prac and paper 2 for both. hais.. esther can't utter a single words now. she's ........! hais.. I'm disappointed in myself seriously! lost of words.. what esle can I still say? encouragement words? oh come on.. if u know how to be self-controlled, and can do ur own revision, u don't need people's encouragements. u know how to do it and u will know what to do RIGHT NOW at this junction! but u don't esther, u really don't. hais.. people are worried for me, but did I worried about myself? I really don't know. hais.. I just know how to say, but did I really do it? did I do what I say? yes sometimes I did but most of the times? what am I doing? dazing around, in my own lala land? esther wake up! u don't have time anymore! u left with 17 more days remember? I'll always remember what u have told me. really hope I won't disappoint all of u. I really hope.

oh gosh. what happen to my mum nowadays? is she suspecting me or something? why is she keep asking where am I blah blah blah.. what is she suspecting at? why is she controlling me? I'm not 3 year old kid can? can I have my own time? MUST I really need to REPORT to u every single thing that I've done outside? yes I know u are my mum and have to right to ask. But can I have my own freedom? can I have my own bloody time? it pissed me off sometimes. yes I know what u mean. I know by letting her know where am I or what so ever will benefit for me in the future. but I don't like to be controlled! I just feel like I'm just a little kid. yes is good but NO to be controlled and questioned by someone! what is all this? care for me? worried for me? I'm 17! I know what is right and wrong! please give me a break! please stop nagging! I want my own private life! could u just leave me alone for a moment? I can be what u want me to become. just STOP interferring my life! I need peace. I really do.... I need a peace of my mind....